I don’t wanna let the light shine on my face, while I try to build a home inside a darkened space.
if you can’t stop the bleeding then it’s far too late. give my heart to the enemy and walk away.
was I weak or was I wrong? did I fake it far too long? I was building up a shell, I had to break down my old hell.
A retreat within my mind, I was lost. I found nothing, and I found no one. it was a self-made habitat, where the parasite of desperation found a way to cultivate inside.
fighting away desire for love. temptations of pleasure, eventual pain.
playing the game, and living a lie. drowning in silence, and hiding in shame.
credits
from Vivid Illusion,
track released October 5, 2021
Ant Taboada - Guitars, Bass, Clean vocals, lyrics
Aki McCullough - Harsh vocals
Aaron Stechauner - Drums
recorded in New York, NY, Marlborough, MA, and Shrewsbury MA
Aki runs a studio where we recorded most of "Vivid Illusion". Sales of her studio's compilation go towards funding production costs for trans artists. Vivid Illusion